Contentment in this Moment
“Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride of life—is not from the Father but is from the world.”
1 John 2:15-16 ESV
I was running late. I know, that's not surprising to most of you. I was particularly frustrated at my lack of punctuality because I was so very excited to spend an hour walking the beach with some Precious sisters in Christ and pray. I needed prayer time. I was struggling with impatience with the Lord and being distracted by all the "possibilities" that were passing me by in life.
When we discussed meeting I remember hearing that we'd "meet at the public access on the west end by...." Ugh it's frustrating that I cannot remember the details and just be present when people are talking. So needless to say, I was late, lost and not even sure where to meet them. I decided I would park and walk towards the west end and I thought for sure we would meet sooner than later. I just needed prayer time. I zipped into a spot along the highway and tossed my keys on the floor board. I slipped my flip flops off on the end of the long walkway. I just could not wait to get my feet in the sand and "feel God's presence".
I love the sea. It reminds me of the power of God. Gazing Into the deep blue water pulls me into contemplating the depths of his mysteries. As I stood on the edge of the crystal green and blue water lapping gently against the grains of sand I began to praise God and ask him for peace and calmness in this uncertain season in life. I dwelt on the thoughts of my frustration and Unsatisfied desires. As I entertained thoughts of lack and limitations, something caught my eye. I scanned the shimmering, dancing water for the flashing white and pink that distracted my clouded mind.
I saw it, a beautiful scalloped and spiraled conch shell. It was large, and whole, and stunning. I love collecting shells and have a dish in my house with all sorts of beautiful pieces of God's magnificent artwork. I wanted that shell! As the waves seemed to rush in faster and longer I tried to keep my eyes connected to the beautiful shell. In and out, back and forth, the waves moved the shell effortlessly.
Now keep in mind that I was dressed for beach walking and not wadding! The shell seemed to stay just out of my reach. I inched my way further and further into the water with each wave to try and get my hands on it. I had my yoga pants rolled as high as I could, and my sleeves pulled up over my shoulders. It was just right there, barely out of my reach. "Ugh! I went for it and drenched my shirt!" It rolled deeper into the depths.