Proverbs 6:12-15 NKJV

[12] A worthless person, a wicked man, Walks with a perverse mouth; [13] He winks with his eyes, He shuffles his feet, He points with his fingers; [14] Perversity is in his heart, He devises evil continually, He sows discord. [15] Therefore his calamity shall come suddenly; Suddenly he shall be broken without remedy.

I can't tell you how many times I have had conversations that consisted of, "I'm not that good, but at least I'm not that bad." I have justified behaviors. I have pardoned myself for doing something because I could be doing worse. Even with addiction, I used the excuse of never missing work. I was functioning... but as a functioning addict.

I wasn't surprised when everything fell apart. I had been expecting it. In the back of my mind, I could hear the footsteps of Galatians 6:7 - Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap.

The flip side to all of this is the blessings that come from honoring God. I'm not perfect, but I am pursuing sanctification. I used prayer, scripture, and the conviction of the Holy Spirit to lead me in a better way. I am better today than I was yesterday.